You're all i hoped to find, in every single way
And everything i would give, is everything you couldnt take
Cause nothing feels like home, you're a thousand miles away
And the hardest part of living is just taking breaths to stay
Cause i know im good for something i just havent found it yet

I can live without you, but without you ill be miserable at best.

You and I. We were born to die. 

These past few days have been some of the best of my life. For once, everything feels perfect. Like it all fits into place, and this is the way its meant to be. 

I guess that this is goodbye.

If i'm honest, i dont know you anymore. Yes, you can say you make the effort, but quite frankly feeling like someone has to strain to make the effort just once in a while isnt the nicest feeling in the world. Perhaps i was angry at the beginning, but this doesnt affect or hurt me at all anymore. Maybe that makes me a bad person but people grow apart and there's happy memories to hold on to. So, after all this time, i guess this is goodbye. 

I can't remember being this happy. Its like everything i never thought i'd getting suddenly all arrived at once. I'm so grateful to you guys, you're the reason i always feel like smiling. And to you, although i am aware  i dont really deserve someone as wonderful as you. But i'm trying, i'm trying to be someone who stands by your side and feels like she belongs there.

Happiness you see, is addictive. 

Tired.

Of trying my hardest but never feeling good enough. Of always being put second when really im the one thats always been there for you, even when you turned your back on me. Of the guilt. Of the constant worry that never seems to leave. Of trying to pretend im not struggling.

And the games you played, you would always win.